Waiting Waiting Waiting…
I’m drying my tears, and moving on…
Only two weeks of this. I don’t think it’s as bad as I imagined it would be. Probably because I’m only in… Oh, about the fifth day of the wait. And it’s my first time EVER experiencing this. I think I was already wondering if I was pregnant before I even ovulated. (By the way… If words like “ovulated” and “Aunt Flow” and “Baby Makin'” weird you out you may want to stop reading my blog for awhile.)
Anyway, I’m still trying to adjust to this “new” stage of life I’m in. I’m no longer having the constant questions of “do I want a kid right now?… Really? Am I REALLY ready for this? There’s no turning back once…”
Now it’s more like “OMG, I had better not stand too close to the microwave in case I’m pregnant!”
It didn’t take much for people at work to start to get suspicious. Instead of coming in with french fries every day (although I’m told they can’t permanently harm a fetus) I’m coming in with veggies, rice, beans, pineapple juice (thanks to one of you who told me it helps with conception) and LOTS of water.
“Preparing for a baby?” One of my suspicious friends asked me.
“No,” I squeamishly replied. “Just trying to be healthier.” I could see the word “SUUUURE” spreading across her face.
I have found a few things to keep me occupied (isn’t is sad I need this when I’ve only been TTC for a week?).
TwoWeekWait.com: It rocks my socks. There are two things in particular that I like to look at one that site. 1. Pregnancy tests. Yes, good ‘ol pee sticks.
People post pictures of their pee sticks starting after ovulation and show how the second line appears and gets darker and darker as the days go by. There are also an evaporation line examples so you can tell if it’s a false positive.
2. There is also this forum on there that is called “Early Pregnancy Symptoms” and it has pretty much is sure to be the death of me. From things like “sore boobies” to “sneezing”.. Yes sneezing, now I’m constantly analyzing every body twinge, ache and tickle. But it’s also fun to read. When I’m wondering if I’m pregnant and I have some down time I’ll go to that site and read the stories of women who wrote down every little detail that they thought were “early symptoms” from when they finally got their BFP (big fat positive!). There are SO many stories and it makes me feel like it’s possible, and it’ll happen when it’s suppose to!
Another thing that’s helped me through this wait is my reading materials, especially my Fertility Journal, I got from Conceive. It’s a great book that I write in every day with my temperatures, if I take them, what I’m feeling, eating, everything like that… And I think it will help with comparing (false) symptoms month to month. It also helps the days go by a little faster, and every page has interesting facts about trying to conceive. I really think this is a great tool for anyone who’s trying to get pregnant!
There’s also a forum on My Conceive that I love for women in all stages of TTC. I usually hang out in the “just starting out” section. There’s a lot of women there going through the EXACT same things, feeling the same emotions… It’s nice to get it all out in a sort of “anonymous” setting.
I’m also really intrigued and about to try Circle+Bloom. Apparently it’s an audio track that is suppose to help create a mind/body connection to help change your body an relieve stress. There are 28 recorded sessions to listen to daily during your whole cycle. Worth a try right? I’ll let you know how it goes.
Twitter, and my blog has also helped a little. Knowing that a lot of you have been through, are going through or will go through the same things as me helps A LOT!
At some times during the day I’m thinking “am I pregnant” ALL the time. And other times I’m not even thinking about it. I’d have to say most of the time I am though. Not stressing over it, just wondering. I wish I could know NOW.
What do you/did you/ will you do, to help cope with the longest (monthly) two weeks of your life?
Oh those waiting periods!! I remember thinking every little thing meant I was pregnant. I was wrong a couple of times, so the time I really was – I wasn’t too suspicious until I told my pregnant friend I felt weird – it was like I was on my period … but nothing was coming out. There was a pause and she said, “umm, that’s exactly how I felt when I got pregnant!” Sure enough, I was!
I liked spending those waiting periods preparing for either answer.
The 2WW is brutal.
This time, though, I pretty much knew I was pregnant 2 or 3 days after I ovulated. I just knew. I could tell. The first time, I over-analyzed every single twinge and it nearly drove me crazy.
Try not to think of it. Find a good book to read to occupy your time. It’ll go by faster than you think.
Hon— if you are 5 days past ovulation, you could go get a blood test. It may NOT show up this early, but who the hell cares… just go get it. I knew I was pregnant with Carson because I couldnt run a mile. There were literally NO other signs, but I kept trying to run, and I couldn’t get through a mile as easily as I could before I was pregnant. I took a test a week before my “missed period” and it was positive. You dont have to wait until you miss that first period to determine if you’re pregnant. I’m just sayin.
Although… there is a part of me that misses the mystery in conception. I chart everything, take pills, take my temperature, get blood work done… all of it, all the time— so I will know immediately if I am pregnant. I do miss those two weeks where I would wonder if I was pregnant or not.
I certainly can’t wait to hear if you’re pregnant…
I can’t think of anything that really helped other then praying and talking (like we are now) through it. It’s just plain hard and sucks a LOT but if you don’t mind spending $30 (give or take) on the First Response tests then you can try one of those. My MIL has a medical grade test (I hope she finds it today) that apparently can detect the slightest hint of the prego hormone. I hope it does and that my wait will be over but if not I get to wait for dear old AF. Not looking forward to that option but it’ll have to do. Sorry I couldn’t be of more help.
I swear, I will be the exact same way when it’s time in my life. What’s horrible is that TTC for me is AT LEAST a year away and I think about it everyday still. My newest thing is researching vaccinations. I was wondering what you think about that…what will you do as far as your baby and it being vaccinated? Recently I found out that they give newborns the first of three Hep B vaccines in the hospital…I don’t know why since it’s spread by needles and sex (or mother to baby). Also, I have used a gender predictor website for four people that I know are pregnant (and know the sex) and all four times it’s been right!! Crazy huh? I live vicariously right now…
i hope you decided how your going to handle the blog thing.. i hardly ever comment..ok maybe once.
i read every day and enjoy.. still want to be a part of what ever you decide. Love your blog!
Okay, it made me sad to read your last post. I’m sorry that you had to go through that with the whole blog thing.
It’s all good though. We in the blog world love you!
Oh, and this period does suck, but you seem like you are handling it very well. In no time you will know if you are or not. Hopefully yes, because you have been preparing for a while and I have loved every blog entry about it. It has actually made me realize that next time I get pregnant I need to do more preparing on my part.So thanks for that.
When I got pregnant with my daughter, the one month I didn’t think I was pregnant, I was. It was weird.
Now, I try not to think about it every month, but after so long it is hard not to obsess. Maybe month 16 is the month haha!
Good luck to both of us!!
I haven’t done the tww yet, but you know I’m following yours…I can’t give you advise or share my experiences with you, but I’ve got lots of *hugs* for you and prayers going out to you as well
Wow! First, good luck. Don’t overstress yourself at all! Trust me, not everything you read is true. I LOVE french fries. While I was prego, I had to have a micky d’s large fry EVERY SINGLE DAY OR I WASN’T HAPPY!! And my baby came out beautifully fine. She’s perfect. (Not to gloat but) she even knows things normal three years olds don’t learn until they are five. The microwave thing cracked me up. Lol. Your funny lady, I think I’ll add you to my personal blogroll just to experience this hourney with you. Good luck. I love the page!! I totally not green with envy (yes I am lol)!! *wink*
I agree that the 2ww is evil! Longest two weeks of my life… until I was on bed rest lol! When we finally succeeded in our TTC journey, I had really bad cramps starting about a week before my period and it KILLED me to wait long enough to take the test. I finally broke down and got the First Response (although not the digi one) and tested 4 days early and got my BFP. Every month before that though, I was just like you and questioned every perceived “symptom” constantly. It’s weird, but like others have said, when I finally was preggers, I just kind of knew “this is it”. Fingers crossed for your AF’s 10 month vacation! 🙂 (And what is the deal with the french fries thing? I never heard any of that during my pregnancy!)
Girl if you think this wait is long wait until you are preggo. 🙂
Longest…10…months…ever. So, my advice to you is wrap yourself up in a good book or movie that has NOTHING to do with the current events, just to give yourself a mental break from it all.
Wishing you all the best!
I had cracked my tailbone so that took up a lot of my time and attention.
I don’t recommend cracking your tailbone just to keep your mind off of the wait. Truly, it isn’t worth it. (Even though I definitely did not do it on purpose.)
It’s different for every person. Some people say they can tell immediately. I didnt know until my period pulled a no show. I think i started my last job probably within a week of getting pregnant. I was busy telling people “whoo, life is good. just me and my man. I’m not thinking about kids for another year.” I had no idea I was already pregnant.
I remember when I wanted to get pregnant (lol, like, from right off after getting married, pretty much)..every single month we were trying I’d like, freak out waiting to know! Any weird feeling, craving, mood made me want to run out, buy tests, & think they were wrong when they said no, lol. Finally I bought a test and made myself waaaait till it’d be accurate to take it (sure enough, it was Baby Dominic!)!
I was crazy, though I wasn’t one to do all the crazy things-i.e., no microwaves, no french fries-I did start my prenatal vitamins & cut back on my coffee/tea intake.
Good luck!
After trying to get preg for 7 years, or pretending I was not trying I should say, It began to drive me nuts. You just have to not think about it. Which of course is when I finally got pregnant, 6 years and 11 months of thinking about it, 1 month not thinking = baby.
So yeah… i know its impossible not to think about it. But its SO exciting and goes so quick! Once you are preg you miss the days of ‘wonder’! <3
It’s amazing how quickly time goes by when you’re sleeping. Maybe you could just take a 2 week nap?
I don’t want to get on your case….but ….your many readers who have adopted because they couldn’t have children biologically are saying…RELAX! Two weeks is nothing…I know it’s a lot for you and I DO REMEMBER BEING in your place, but in the grand picture….it’s really not that long….I know you will constantly think about it and there it nothing to do to get by that…but try 5 years …..sorry not feeling much sympathy.
Your blog is too cute! We’ve been trying for #2 for nearly three years now, so I know all about the “two week wait!” Every month when I get my period I get a little sad, a little depressed, and often just plain mad. It’s definitely a study in patience! I wish you tons of luck and baby dust.
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~ AquarianJwl
I really have a hard time with the 2WW! I will have to check out some of those things you suggested.
I obsessed pretty much every time! But I also joined a TTC board and made some great friends to help me keep myself sane! Oh, and I blogged. 🙂
I love twoweekwait.com. Those ladies are the best!
Good luck! I’m 13 weeks pregnant, my husband and I started trying back in mid-June and I got a positive test on July 5.
My advice is to get a digital. The line ones were negative… but the digital was positive!
Oh gosh. We’re not trying yet but I definitely do not look forward to that wait. I am an impatient person. I’m sure it’ll drive me nuts.
Good luck lady!
The 2ww is horrendous. You should read Taking Charge of Your Fertility, very insightful. If you’re charting using Fertility Friend you should post a link to your chart so I can chart stalk you.
Aggghhhhh, I know the feeling of emotions and the “anxiety” that comes with the TWW. It’s both exciting and frustrating at the same time. I drove myself nuts during my 1st few 2WWs and was highly involved in BabyCenter.com’s TTC forums. I found the support in those forums made the wait go by soooo fast. Now, I’m definitely more laid back and won’t test unless I’m days late for AF. My tips: Interact with others who are also at 2WW and stay healthy.
Wishing you much baby dust!!!
you are so silly to even think about french fries like that! I had a major french fry craving during pregnancy and I have a beautiful healthy baby. I also ate junk food,,
Its good to eat healthy, but don’t obsess over it.
Best of luck to you! I hope it happens at the perfect time!
Not to that point you have reached yet…I’m still at the “OMG would the doctors really let me, me who knows nothing of babies, me who isn’t really sure I’m mommy material, me who had rather have a dog….take a real life BABY home!” I’m working slowly to get to where you are…my hubby is there, but I’m a little slow 🙂 I hope the wait isn’t to long for you and that you get good, positive, news!
I found the website early-pregnancy-tests.com and they have great prices on their pregnancy tests and ovulation strips. I am not pregnant (yet) so I have yet to get a positive, but you might want to check them out.
Check out this story and maybe you can write a post about it. I wrote a post about it (and mostly the comments that follow it) on my blog, but my blog is private. Anyway, I’d like to hear your comments/your readers’ comments.
Best of luck with the waiting period!
http://bodyodd.msnbc.msn.com/archive/2009/09/09/2060745.aspx
Oh gosh. We’re not trying yet but I definitely do not look forward to that wait. I am an impatient person. I’m sure it’ll drive me nuts.
Good luck lady!
It’s amazing how quickly time goes by when you’re sleeping. Maybe you could just take a 2 week nap?
Your blog is too cute! We’ve been trying for #2 for nearly three years now, so I know all about the “two week wait!” Every month when I get my period I get a little sad, a little depressed, and often just plain mad. It’s definitely a study in patience! I wish you tons of luck and baby dust.
Wow! First, good luck. Don’t overstress yourself at all! Trust me, not everything you read is true. I LOVE french fries. While I was prego, I had to have a micky d’s large fry EVERY SINGLE DAY OR I WASN’T HAPPY!! And my baby came out beautifully fine. She’s perfect. (Not to gloat but) she even knows things normal three years olds don’t learn until they are five. The microwave thing cracked me up. Lol. Your funny lady, I think I’ll add you to my personal blogroll just to experience this hourney with you. Good luck. I love the page!! I totally not green with envy (yes I am lol)!! *wink*