“Just do it” That’s a phrase I’ve been hearing from some of my friends and new bloggy friends recently regarding my “up phase” toward parenting (well besides Thursday’s post because I’m really not looking forward to lack of sleep).
To be honest I wish it were that easy. I wish I could just give in and say “ok here we go!” but it’s not that simple. Lately I’ve been the one that’s had the desire to sprout. There have been times when I’ve felt this way and told my husband, then the next day I’ve changed my mind and I’m swearing it’s going to be another decade. He’s pretty much immune to my constant reconsideration’s and indecisiveness. There’s been times where it’s come down to “ok now?” and I’ve chickened out. Now I’m just trying not to be a tease–Not imply anything unless I’m serious. –I’m finding this extremely challenging. I’m turning into the boy who calls wolf… No, I think I already am. Now how do I get myself out of this predicament. Or a better question: How am I sure I won’t just chicken out again?
Of course the decision isn’t all mine, however I’m just blogging about my side of the decision. I can’t speak for hubby here but I do know he’d prefer to be done with school and know what he’s going to do for a living. He’s also not buying my “up phases” right now. It must seem like I can’t be serious if I’ve been “serious” before but not really. I don’t think I’m going to bring it up anymore… Ok, but it’s so hard! I can’t help it, I mean look at this blog for heaven’s sake!