And I don’t mean that in a good way. Pregnancy week 6, 7, 8, and 9-11 have been kicking my butt.
A few weeks ago I lamented my laziness and lack of domestic skills. Truth is, I’m lazy with just about everything right now and the thought of doing anything I don’t HAVE to do, makes me nauseous.
If I were to sum up the first couple months-ish of pregnancy I haven’t been blogging about it would be like this: L-A-Z-Y!
When people hear you’re pregnant they want to know if you’re feeling sick, or puking. But I’m not sure many people who haven’t been pregnant truly understand the serious fatigue pregnant women feel, especially in their first trimester (and last, but by then everyone knows you’re tired and done with being pregnant).
When I get home from work it takes SO much effort to do anything else. I can’t remember the last time I went to the grocery store. I’m learning to be resourceful because I don’t even feel like going back out for food. I scrounge for cans of soup, raviolis, pasta, frozen dinners, ANYTHING that only requires me to microwave, boil or stick in the oven.
When my friends invite me to do things it takes great willpower to not decline. A few days ago a friend invited us to go to an inflatable playground then dinner after and I was extremely proud of myself for going. I had worked from 4-1, took a nap from about 2:30-3:30, then picked Lil’ J up from school and we went straight out to play. Had my friend not invited us out I would probably have overslept and confined us to our house for the afternoon. Like I have pretty much every day before and since then.
I’m not a huge proponent for kids and TV, not that I’m hugely against it either, I just usually find us out doing other things… But that’s not the case right now. Sesame Street, Disney movies, and yes, even that crazy Yo Gaba Gaba show are my saving grace right now. When I get a day off, and she wakes up early, I can make her a quick breakfast, turn on a show, and if I’m lucky, sleep an extra hour. I’m not a bad mom, I’m just pregnant, and I’m pretty sure that gives me a pass for a little while.
When I get home from an early shift, and I’m exhausted, I ask her if she wants to watch a princess movie (of course she does) and I can sit with her, and teach her the songs.
To my credit, in between our marathon television watching I do try to add in some craft time, puzzle time, games, or toy-playing time but overall, I’m just being a clump of lard.
I seriously don’t know how people have more than two children… Unless the second and first keep each other busy so you can rest more. And remember how I wanted them just two years apart? It’s probably a good thing that didn’t happen. Lil’ J is much more independent than she was 6-9 months ago, which makes my neglect less noticeable.
Writing to-do lists are my THING. Or they were. I love lists, and tackling them. But not right now. Surviving work is a big enough feat, and entertaining my sweet child for the remainder of the day is the maximum I can handle. Even taking my camera out of my bag is too much work. Editing cute photos is more than I want to do.
Oh there is still one thing I like… Online shopping! I can manage that. Maybe a little too well. Since I haven’t been sewing and Lil’ J needs new clothes I bought a few new dresses from Adelaide’s Boutique, and some for myself from Motherhood Maternity.
The thing is, I know I’ve gotta swing out of this. I believe this next year is a crucial time for me. I’m trying to figure things out, pinpointing my passions and goals, and I feel like I’m on the cusp of something new an exciting. Ok yes, the new baby but something else too. I’m flying to NYC today for a special project. I’ll be able to tell you more about it soon, but I’m really excited about it, and hoping it’ll be the kick in the behind I need to figure out what’s next. Don’t let me get into how excited I am to be flying ALONE for the first time in two years. No toddler to tote around, I can sleep if I want, heck, just RESTING will be nice! Oooh I can’t wait.
I was talking to a friend I admire at work last week. He has so much going on an manages to keep successful side projects going on top of his full time job. I told him I have so many ideas but just not enough time to execute them. He said “you’ve gotta make time.”
Now telling this to a pregnant mother with manic tendencies isn’t exactly healthy, but it sent a little spark to the dormant pre-preggo mom deep DEEP down inside who managed to do everything I’m doing and so much more.
I’m not mad at the current me for wanting to be lazy. I’ll give her a few more weeks. But then it’s time to get to work. Because by the time we reach maternity leave, we need to have some balls rolling, and be gettin’ some bidness done.
One thing I have actually been working on are my weekly pregnancy updates (as seen above). I’m current on taking them (I’m at 11 weeks now) but not current on editing them all. I hope to catch up on the ride to/from New York. I was inspired by several different pregnancy documentation ideas. I liked the project pregnancy weekly shirt idea, but didn’t want to wear the same thing every week, like I did last time, and whatdoyaknow–I didn’t feel like making a shirt. Ultimately I decided to try something similar to this project. Except I started much earlier and I’m taking all of these photos myself, in my bedroom, no studio or lights. Just a tripod and remote. If anyone’s interested I may post a tutorial later on in my pregnancy, once my energy comes back!
Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m going back to sleep!