I decided to take a little bit of a break from the flashback posts. Some are fun but some I’ve decided to just save for my journal! No sense looking back now.. Only forward right?
So, what everyone’s asking… How I’m FEELING.
I’m feeling good. ALWAYS tired, and almost always nauseous. I haven’t thrown up… Sometimes I wish I would, but I’m told that doesn’t relieve any nausea, so I guess I’ll take what I’ve got. Let me stress how tired I am… So tired I’m not going to proof-read this post. So please excuse any typos.
I have crazy cravings already. Cravings for Ramen, Mac and Cheese (we’re happy the baby is a cheap eater) then brownies, carrots, peaches and jalapeno poppers. Not all at the same time.. But many of them, yes. Did I mention I have the best husband? He makes me/ goes to get me whatever I want. He even brings me grapes in the morning when I’m too nauseous to get up! Ok, I’ll stop bragging about him now (by the way today is his birthday!).
So lately… I’ve been more obsessed than ever with watching baby shows. It’s all I have set on my DVR. I know my poor husband is sad it’s taking up sports time, but it’s quite entertaining for me.
I must admit, they are NOT as fun to watch now that I’m pregnant. I mean, they kind of are, cause they’ve always been intriguing to me, but it’s not as fun thinking about getting this baby out one day… When it’s like 10,000Xs bigger.
As far as progress, I found a doctor I LOVE and a hospital I want to deliver at. I checked out a couple of hospitals and a birth center. I chose the hospital I did because of all of the reviews I’ve read, because I liked the feel of it, because of my doctor and some friends.
I also have a close friend who recently had a baby at another hospital I was considering and she was not impressed at all.
As far as the birth center… I’d have to come out of pocket a lot for it. I wasn’t totally sold on it from the beginning, and from the start I thought I’d feel more comfortable in a hospital, so the money was an additional minus for me. Maybe next time… But this time I’m excited to have an OB I love… At a hospital I liked and possibly hire a doula to help along the way.
My OB was referred to me by my family doctor who I love. He gave me her name and one other. I did research on them as well as a few others I was considering, and a couple of midwife groups and I ended up choosing an OB I thought would be perfect for me. When I went to her practice for the first time I felt at home. She and her staff made no only me, but my husband feel comfortable, and she took the time to talk to us, and joke with us… I can’t stress enough how much I love her and how excited I am to have her.
I later found out she delivered the baby of a friend I work with… She wasn’t her OB but was the on call doctor the day she delivered and my friend told me she liked her more than her own doctor!
One thing that DEFINITELY tells me I’m pregnant is the CONSTANT outpouring of advice!! To my TTC friends here’s a fact.. And to my preggo friends and moms… You know this is the truth… People LOVE to tell pregnant people advice. Whether it’s some secret remedy for morning sickness, what books to read, how to deliver your baby, what to wear, EVERYONE has something to say.
Luckily for me, I don’t mind. I like advice, the more the merrier… But I remember to take it all with a grain of salt, and so far… It’s not getting annoying.
I was tweeting about watching a Baby Story which of course took us to the topic of labor. I don’t know what it is but it seems like most of my followers are natural birthers/ home birthers etc. I think that’s awesome because I get to hear from a side you don’t often get to hear from, but the constant pounding about natural labor is making me nervous.
I’m TOTALLY open to things like birthing balls, hypnobirthing, and trying things the natural way but I am NOT against getting an epidural either. I don’t see anything wrong with either.
I’ve had so many friends go into labor with an idea of how they’d do it but things changed. I know people who wanted an epidural right away but were too far along to get one, then ended up doing it naturally. I’ve known people who wanted no medication, and to try hypnobirthing and dancing through labor but ended up needing an emergency c-section while unconscious.
To be honest I’m not one to stress over how I’m getting my baby out. I just want to get it out when the time is right, and safely. I don’t think an epidural is going to hurt my baby any more than delivering it at home unassisted… And I don’t care which way others decide to go. I just know that I want to do what’s comfortable and right for me. I actually don’t get all of the hype/ obsession over Hospitals= Evil or Home births= Reckless.
Since when did people care so much about what other people do? As long as you’re not pushing me into one or the other I’m not going to tell you my opinion on your birthing decisions. One solution isn’t going to work for everyone. We all have different conditions and different things that make us feel more comfortable.
I feel so bad when women tell me they regret getting an epidural, or regret not going natural the whole way. I don’t know why that is exactly but I hope I don’t have regrets. My friend who ended up being put out for labor after dreams of a natural birth… Does she have regrets? No! She’s happy to have her healthy little girl.
I think it’s safe to say I’ve done my fair share of research. And I’ll continue to do it as I go along. But don’t hate me if I get drugs ok? We’ve all gotta do what works for us, and I’d hate to have my good moment ruined my people telling me I drugged my baby.
I hope if I don’t put that pressure on myself to have a “perfect labor” I’ll just be happy to have my baby in my arms once and for all… Regardless of how it gets its big self out of my womb. Sure, I won’t go in begging for an epidural… (Or maybe I will). Either way, I just need to get from point A to point B. (A being enormously pregnant and B being a mom with a healthy new baby in my arms.)
Isn’t that what’s most important?
That being said, I LOVE reading labor stories! I hear all of the stuff on A Baby Story is overly dramatic… If that’s the case, show me what you’ve got! Write a post about your labor story, or link up to one you’ve already posted! I’ve read some crazy ones already… From emergency operations to delivering at home on the stairs! Bring it!
PS: YES… I’ve seen “The Business of Being Born” I think I’ll get that question as much as the question I got when TTC “Have you read ‘Taking Charge of Your Fertility’?”